She's here!

I knew she was coming soon but didn't know she would be here already. Elana's birthmom called me the morning of April 23rd and told me that Elana was coming today by emergency c-section. "Could this be true? Am I really gonna meet my daughter today? But I'm not ready. I thought I had 7 more weeks to get ready." So many things going through my mind. Praying that she will be okay cause she will be premature. So we packed all the kids, and ourselves in a hurry, dropped them off to 2 different places and off we go on our 3 hour drive to go see our baby! Running on pure adrenaline.

That was the longest 3hr drive of my life. Worried the whole way there, Worried about the babies health, about meeting the birth parents, about the whole adoption process, where we were going to stay, how the other kids would react to her, and how long will I have to be away from the family. And then I received a text...a picture of our baby girl. 2lbs 12ozs and breathing on her own! God told me "Krista, don't worry. I've got her!" I felt a peace come over me.

We finally arrived to the hospital and went straight to see our baby girl. There she was laying there so perfect and so very tiny. I've never seen a baby so tiny and yet breathing on her own. Wow! Such a little miracle! God is so good. How is it possible that this tiny human can survive outside the womb with minimal medical intervention?

The next 10 days I stayed with Elana 3 hours away while Josh returned to give the other 4 kids some normalcy. I woke up early, stayed by Elana's side until late, only leaving for lunch and supper, everyday. I was able to hold her, stare at her, kiss her and my favorite was our kangaroo care(skin to skin)time. To feel her every move, every breath, every beat of her heart was such an amazing bonding time.

I didn't know if it would be possible to love a child who did not come from my own body as much as I do my biological children. But it is! I love her so much. I love her as if she did come from me. She may not have grown in my belly but she sure has grown in my heart!

And so our long journey begins in the NICU...